NAMING CONVENTIONS

When I decided to start this blog - my third! - I had to select an appropriate name for it. I decided on the one you see above, but several others were under consideration:

ALS well that ends well - Well, there’s only one way this ends – and it ain’t too good.

The Gehrig Chronicles - Lou Gehrig is the name Americans most often associate with ALS. But these are my chronicles, not his.

The Lame Duck Diaries - The term “lame duck“ refers to someone who is still in office but whose successor has already been selected. You’re still around, but you can’t accomplish much.

Writing a blog in these days of Facebook‘s ascendancy seems like a futile and stupid gesture. Nevertheless, I think there’s value in blogging. I have written on various electronic pages for fourteen years now, and I have my own opinions and motivations for doing so, not least of which are self-aggrandizement and time-wastage. But unlike people’s Facebook pages, blogs must seek their own audience. And I think there will be an audience for this one.

I’m writing this because I am one of the tiny percentage of humans who has ALS: amyotrophic lateral sclerosis.

Many people in the US know this disease by its other name, Lou Gehrig’s disease. Gehrig was a famous baseball player - the legendary Iron Horse of the New York Yankees - who resigned in 1939 after having been diagnosed with the mysterious ailment that had caused his formidable batting average to melt away. His farewell speech was a model of humility and strength, a tearjerker unto this day.

ALS got a lot of attention four years ago when people started posting videos of themselves on the Internet getting buckets of ice water dumped on their heads, with the objective of raising money for medical research. Lou would probably have chuckled over those shenanigans.

Here’s what you need to know about ALS: It is incurable, and it is inevitably fatal. The only question is how long it takes to kill you.

Once in a while you’ll hear about an outlier: someone on the far side of the survival curve. Stephen Hawking was one such person, having lived over 40 years after being diagnosed. His was an unusual case, and he put up with a lot of quality-of-life impairment to get there. As for myself, I’m not going to be walking the planet 40 years from now. Of course, that’s no big surprise, given that I am 65 today.

Ten years? Maybe. I’ve spoken with a guy who’s been around that long. But that’s also pretty far out on the curve. It’s much more likely that I will be shuffling off our mortal coil sometime between two and five years from now. I’m not happy with those odds, but facts is facts.

There’s a lot of exciting medical research going on right now, much of it involving stem cells. Some of the studies even indicate that the progress of the disease can be reversed. This is awfully good news, but probably not for me. The likelihood of a working stem cell therapy being available to me in time is not a proposition that any betting man would take.

I’ve often said that we buy a lottery ticket every day when we get out of bed. In fact, we buy a whole bunch of them, and there’s a way higher chance of us getting a winner than if we buy one of those Mega Millions jackpot ducats. I’m talking about the “Getting Hit by a Bus” lottery. Or the “Kidney Cancer” lottery. And I, friends, have won the fucking jackpot.

I’m planning to write here until I no longer am able to do so... and I hope that’s a long time. But my mad typing skillz, always questionable at best, are now being challenged in all kinds of new ways. So, as Timothy Treadwell famously said, bear with me. Because this is my last and most personal story.